I'm not going to go into the details because the details are boring. But we'll just say I screwed up today. And I got that rock-in-my-stomach, leave-me-alone-to-die sensation we all get when we screw up, and I kind of felt like the biggest idiot that ever walked planet earth. Know the feeling? Yup. It's stupid.
Yet, I don't want to forget the feeling. For two reasons:
1. I know from experience that moments of feeling like an idiot and wishing nothing more than to curl up under a rock and sleep your weaknesses away make your later moments of triumph so much more wonderful. Right now I feel like an idiot, but tomorrow? Tomorrow something great might come of the day, and the contrast between bad and good will be even sweeter when I'm basking in goodness. And the goodness will come.
2. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE FREAKING UNIVERSE AND YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT. Ian called me and put my head back on straight. I owe so much to that old podling of mine and the nice talks we've had over the semester. The phone call definitely brightened my day.
And then there was Tali. Good gracious that girl is wonderful. I told her what happened and she told me to just be in the moment. Even though the moment sucked. And that people screw up. And that it's okay. And then she sent me this video because she is random and glorious and it made me laugh. We then proceeded to to talk about chocolate, "Karselfark blessings", which one of us is legit-er than the other (she beats me by a landslide, people), and then we "nullified" each other. Because that's what US History students do, I guess.
Jacob, Hannah, Tim and Anela have also been blessings this week with their affirming words and our hilarious and ambitious conversations. Geez, and it's only Monday. I'm so blessed.
That's all. Have a lovely day, friends.
-Julia
"That's what you do in a herd. We look after each other." - Tali
Julia,
ReplyDeleteYou enspire me. So much. You are the sweetest girl I know. I was really needing to read something like this. It really lifted my spirits. Thank you so much for being so amazing!
Your friend,
Rebecca
Rebecca,
DeleteThank you so much for your sweet comment! It's always nice to know when you lift someone up. And you dear are quite inspiring yourself, I've always been impressed with your strength since meeting you at elevation. Thanks again. :)
Love,
Julia